So today I feel much better than I did yesterday. Don't know if it's because I stayed off the caffeine or had some time alone or because I decided to change my attitude. Either way, I'm better than I was. Heck I even mowed my lawn tonight, but didn't get the dishes loaded after dinner, but that's better than nothing!
I talked to Jordy and Crew last night and I realized that I just miss those guys so dang much and I'm being shafted on the Nana stuff! But I have Skype and that's better than nothing!
We went and helped Crystal pick up a waterbed because she wants to move downstairs and make herself some private space...her bed wouldn't fit so she went another way. She wants to make the basement like her apartment and if that keeps her from moving out, well that's better than nothing!
Tomorrow is my last day of school for the week and so hopefully I can get something done around the house. My cupboards and closets need cleaning and my yard needs some major attention! My lawnmower wheel is falling off and I hope it makes it through the next few weeks because I am not buying another one this year. It's old and works my guts out, but....it's better than nothing!
So I will be done for now because I need to go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be another good day....but if it's not at least I'm alive and my family is healthy and that's better than nothing!
Thought for the day:
I think it should be a best friends job to immediatly clear your computer history when you die ;D
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Time Flies!

Wow does time fly! I just realized that I haven't blogged for almost 6 months! What is wrong with me? So much has happened since the end of March. Oh let's see, how to get caught up...nope...too much so I will just start now...
Today is one of those days where you just feel frustrated with the world. I'm usually not a negative person and I see the glass half full and humor fixes anything, but...today I feel frustrated with school, housework, bills and myself. School is stagnant right now because I'm trying to get Med. Term done and I'm starting on Psychology and I keep hearing it pretty much sucks. I've done really well in Med. Term so I don't think I need to take the final but then when I'm done with that I have to take Law and Ethics and I'm not really excited cause it just seems so boring. Yes I am whining...is there a fine for that? Should be right? My house is just falling to pieces and the bills (mostly doctor) just keep coming. And myself...well I feel good inside, it's the outside that really, really gets me down. I know what I need to do, when I do it, then it works and I feel good, but I am lazy. No getting around it. I'm not usually lazy, I am pretty active and all but by the time I get home from school, make dinner, study, clean some of the house, spend time with Tom and the kids I am so pooped that I just want to go to bed and not exercise. I eat good though so that's something. Yes I am still whining....another $5 in the jar please..
So anyway, does anybody else ever feel this way? Please don't let me be the only one. Okay, enough whining...mostly cause I don't have any more money to put in the jar...dang! There it is again...$5 please.
My family is healthy, I have a roof over my head and my husband and kids love me. Oh and I have the best, cutest, sweetest, overall wonderful grandson. So life is good.... stay tuned!
Thought for the day:
He who laughs last, probably didn't get it.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thinking Spring and thinking too much

I'm sitting here watching it snow and wishing it wouldn't. My request for today is that the snow goes away until November 30th. Thank you. I put the flowers cause I want Spring to come!!!
So my mom is coming today to visit for a week. This time she is staying with Sheri. I haven't seen her for a year and I think I have talked to her 3 times since then? Actually it's alot for us. She really doesn't call me, and that's fine cause I don't make much of an effort either. Our relationship, at best, is......wierd. There is no other word for it. It's hard to see how she lives and I want to do something about it, but when I try she refuses and I can't really help her from another state. We even offered to turn our garage into a mother-in-law apartment for her and she said no. I get frustrated I guess.
So she is coming to visit from Colorado and Sheri is getting her teeth taken care of because they are in such bad shape. They have all broken off ( the 17 that are left) and they are infected and causing her pain and she can't really eat anything. So the theory is, pull out the teeth for now because it has got to be better than what she has, and then try to get her some false teeth later.
I don't know why, but ever since I found out she is coming, I have really been melancholy. I don't mean to be, I mean she's my mom. I have forgiven her for the past and I realize she really is quite messed up and the people who put her there in the first place will have judgement brought down and it will not be pretty. But I guess the reason I feel the way I do is because I am sorry for her and when I try to help her, it just reminds me of how my childhood was. Now I don't feel sorry for myself, but I feel bad for the situation and how it ended. Thank Heavenly Father for helping me and being my protector. He helped me through some tough times as a child and I didn't even know about him! He kept me and my sister safe from many an evil thing and then He gave us a way out. I will forever be grateful to my dad for taking me out of that life. Even though at the time, I was very upset to be taken from my mom, because I didn't know better. So anyway......too much serious talk. Let's get on to the fun stuff!
Thoughts for the day:
*What hair color do they put on the drivers licence of bald men?
*As income tax time approaches, did you ever notice: When you put the two words 'The' and 'IRS' together, it spells 'THEIRS'?
*Never kick a cow chip on a hot day.
* My mom got me a toilet brush for Christmas, it's not working out so well, I'm thinking of going back to paper
Quote of the day:
Being young is beautiful, but being old is comfortable
I'm starting to feel more comfortable every year! Yay me!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Puppies, movies and John John

So I really don't have much to say, but thought I better update a little. My puppies are growing and growing fast! They will be 3 weeks old tomorrow and they are so cute! Noel has been a great mom and I can't wait to see them running outside when it's warmer.
I have seen a few movies in the last few weeks. And only 1 was family worthy. The first one we watched was on me and Tom's date night, Cop Out....not a good show and very vulgur, offensive and one I would have watched when I was 16. Then we watched a movie on PPV...Zombieland. Ok, I know it's a horror movie and I don't usually watch them, but this one struck me as decent.It was so graphic and lots of bad language, but not too bad. I was laughing and it had a way of touching my funny bone. The next one was a dvd...Law Abiding Citizen....very, very graphic. The only reason I watched it was because Gerard Butler was in it...he is quite handsome! The story line was good enough but the violent scenes were enough to keep me up that night. The 3rd movie was AVATAR and we took the kids to see it. It was really quite good. I love sci-fi stuff anyway and it was well done. No nasty scenes, no graphic violence and no outright bad language. I guess I'm getting to be a prude in my older years, but there really isn't any reason for the bad language in movies. I mean some of them don't bother me, but some really really do! The other one was Wolfman. Not a bad show only so bloody and graphic. The story line was great and had that classic horror picture feel to it. The story of good vs. evil was so prominant and it was well done with good special effects. I was scared of the wolfman...trust me!
Another thing that happend this week that was so great was John got home from the desert. That makes everyone happy! He got home safe to his family and now they can spend some time together and we don't have to worry about him or Jordy and Crew. (well not so much anyway)
Thoughts for the day:
* If you go to the clothes store to buy camoflage pants, do you have trouble seeing any? (uncle Howie, cracks me up)
* Should we let a helping heart turn us bitter? We do and we do for people and sometimes we get bit in the butt!
* A blonde walks into a bar and says ouch
Quote of the day:
Believe only half of what you hear, some of what you see and everything you feel!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Freedom of Religion

Wow I have been thinking about religion a lot lately. I have been trying to be the best person I can be and choosing to follow the teachings of my church to the fullest is really making me a lot happier! I have made a habit of scripture study and prayer and following the promptings of my Father in Heaven. I am trying to live by the Word of Wisdom which is a guide for my temporal body and really trying to look at the world in a whole new light.
I love being able to talk about how I feel with my family. I love having conversations with Tom because he is so knowledgeable and full of faith. He had us start paying tithing again because it is something we feel is important. Everything we have is by the grace of the Lord and all he wants is for us to show our gratitude and faith by giving him 10%. All I have to do is walk into a church building and feel the warm air in the winter, the cool air in the summer and see all the beautiful accessories and know that our 10% is going to some good. Not to mention all the people it helps. The Church is one of the first ones to respond in a crisis. Haiti, Chili, Katrina....they are there to provide supplies and help.
And the Temples.....wow what a place of beauty and peace! Now I will be the first to tell you that I don't know everything there is to know about our religion, but what I do know, I know is right and true. I love the Temple, there is literally no place on Earth that has that peace and feeling of.....aahhh, it's just an experience one must have on their own to understand.
It is my hope that all my children will choose to enter the House of the Lord someday. I hope if it is what they want that they choose to do it on their own, and not because someone else says they should. I also hope that if Crystal isn't married when she is 21 that she will go on a mission and Colton will choose to go when he is 19. Tom and I are planning on doing a couples mission when he retires one day.
Now I am one of the Lords naughty children. If you would have told me 20 years ago that I would feel this way about any religion I would have told you to get the heck out of my face...only I would have said worse than heck. It's amazing how life is. I truly, truly, truly love my Savior and I know that He knows who I am and knows my struggles and joys. He is my friend, my brother and my life, I am so grateful for His sacrifice and his willingness to save a 'soul so rebellious as mine'.
I know Jordy is wanting to go to the Temple some day and I am so proud of her. She has some obstacles, but they too will work themselves out. She has a wonderful, loving husband and I am confident saying he will take her there some day with their children and what a wonderful day that will be! I will be right there beside my baby girl and be swelling with love that can't be measured. And they are re-modeling the Ogden Temple so maybe she can go to that one when it's done. I am so excited to see how it turns out!!! Going to be absolutly beautiful!!!!
So if anyone ever wants to ask me questions about my beliefs, or has something they want to discuss, I will be most willing to answer them. I will always tell the truth even if it's the hard thing to do. I am confident that people will listen to my story and know how the Lord can change your life for the better. It has made me look at my fellow man and helped me realize we are all children of a loving and graceful Father in Heaven and he loves EVERYONE! Yes it's hard to think of Him loving the 'bad' people, but even when we have bad children, don't we still love them, just don't love their actions or choices? So when I go somewhere and I feel frustrated with people, I tell myself that God loves them too and I look for something positive in them. Do they have a beautiful smile? Are they loving to their children? Do they have a nice laugh? Anything that helps me see them in a different light, the way the Lord wants me to see them. Pretty soon, you start to really like everybody. It's a nice feeling.
Thoughts for the day:
* We are all flawed in some significant way
* Why are there so many different religions?
* Why do we wish for summer only to wish for fall?
* What is the point of a mosquito? I mean really, they are useless! Gonna have to take that one up with the big guy some day.
Quote of the day:
Of course we're Christian. The very name of the church declares that. The more people see us and come to know us, the more I believe they will come to realize that we are trying to exemplify in our lives and in our living the great ideals which (Jesus Christ) taught.
Gordon B. Hinckley
I love being able to talk about how I feel with my family. I love having conversations with Tom because he is so knowledgeable and full of faith. He had us start paying tithing again because it is something we feel is important. Everything we have is by the grace of the Lord and all he wants is for us to show our gratitude and faith by giving him 10%. All I have to do is walk into a church building and feel the warm air in the winter, the cool air in the summer and see all the beautiful accessories and know that our 10% is going to some good. Not to mention all the people it helps. The Church is one of the first ones to respond in a crisis. Haiti, Chili, Katrina....they are there to provide supplies and help.
And the Temples.....wow what a place of beauty and peace! Now I will be the first to tell you that I don't know everything there is to know about our religion, but what I do know, I know is right and true. I love the Temple, there is literally no place on Earth that has that peace and feeling of.....aahhh, it's just an experience one must have on their own to understand.
It is my hope that all my children will choose to enter the House of the Lord someday. I hope if it is what they want that they choose to do it on their own, and not because someone else says they should. I also hope that if Crystal isn't married when she is 21 that she will go on a mission and Colton will choose to go when he is 19. Tom and I are planning on doing a couples mission when he retires one day.
Now I am one of the Lords naughty children. If you would have told me 20 years ago that I would feel this way about any religion I would have told you to get the heck out of my face...only I would have said worse than heck. It's amazing how life is. I truly, truly, truly love my Savior and I know that He knows who I am and knows my struggles and joys. He is my friend, my brother and my life, I am so grateful for His sacrifice and his willingness to save a 'soul so rebellious as mine'.
I know Jordy is wanting to go to the Temple some day and I am so proud of her. She has some obstacles, but they too will work themselves out. She has a wonderful, loving husband and I am confident saying he will take her there some day with their children and what a wonderful day that will be! I will be right there beside my baby girl and be swelling with love that can't be measured. And they are re-modeling the Ogden Temple so maybe she can go to that one when it's done. I am so excited to see how it turns out!!! Going to be absolutly beautiful!!!!
So if anyone ever wants to ask me questions about my beliefs, or has something they want to discuss, I will be most willing to answer them. I will always tell the truth even if it's the hard thing to do. I am confident that people will listen to my story and know how the Lord can change your life for the better. It has made me look at my fellow man and helped me realize we are all children of a loving and graceful Father in Heaven and he loves EVERYONE! Yes it's hard to think of Him loving the 'bad' people, but even when we have bad children, don't we still love them, just don't love their actions or choices? So when I go somewhere and I feel frustrated with people, I tell myself that God loves them too and I look for something positive in them. Do they have a beautiful smile? Are they loving to their children? Do they have a nice laugh? Anything that helps me see them in a different light, the way the Lord wants me to see them. Pretty soon, you start to really like everybody. It's a nice feeling.
Thoughts for the day:
* We are all flawed in some significant way
* Why are there so many different religions?
* Why do we wish for summer only to wish for fall?
* What is the point of a mosquito? I mean really, they are useless! Gonna have to take that one up with the big guy some day.
Quote of the day:
Of course we're Christian. The very name of the church declares that. The more people see us and come to know us, the more I believe they will come to realize that we are trying to exemplify in our lives and in our living the great ideals which (Jesus Christ) taught.
Gordon B. Hinckley
Monday, March 1, 2010
Kids and quakes!

Okay, I have like 30 minutes before Colton gets up and I have to start my day for real. So I have a lot to say and not alot of time to say it! Speaking of Colton.....he is really getting an attitude! Oh he is going through puberty or something! Wow!!! My girls got real whiney and cried over everything, Colton gets mouthy and mad. He has such a bad attitude at times I can understand why some animals eat their young.
A few things he has done:
Called me a theif because I tried to give him a check for his allowance and the amount wasn't what he thought I should give him. So I told him he could take it or leave it so he said that made me a theif. So I tore up the check! Then when he was sent to his room for being naughty, he called me a cheap old woman! Kind of funny right? Then a couple of weeks ago he missed the bus so I told him to just ride the elementry bus with Jayk, he FREAKED!! He said 'no, it's embarassing!'. Huh? He rides it every Wednesday for late start? So he ran to his room and locked the door, with a padlock! Oh if I could have broke the door down....he's lucky! So he stayed in there all day and refused to go to school!!! AAAHHHHH I told him he better stay there all day cause the minute he came out I would smack him in the face. Around 1:00, and when I calmed down enough not to strangle him, I went and told him to come and eat and then I was putting him to work. He said ' no cause you'll smack me'. I started laughing! What could I do? So he came out and ate and went to the bathroom, he really, really had to pee. Then I made him clean the yard up, feed ALL the animals and read and do homework. You know, it's a good thing I'm older and easier going. In my younger days, I would have found a way to break down the door and smack the crap out of the kid.
Another thing that happened this week was my darling Crystal played a joke on me. A funny one, but very mean. Tuesday I was going to meet Tom for gym time and I thought 'I'll just hurry and bath, do my hair and make-up and then I won't have to do it later'. So all was going just fine until it was time to dry my hair.......turned on the hair dryer and.....poof! A big ol' cloud of white stuff comes out and blows all over my hair, my face, my vanity! I'm like 'what the heck' then I realized what was going on. Crystal put flour in my hairdryer! I screamed and ran upstairs and yanked the covers off of her and started smacking the crap out of her!(ha ha,maybe she needs a padlock) Not mean, mind you, just to get my point across. She started laughing when she realized why I was mad and then I started laughing too. It was a good joke, just timed wrong. I had about 15 minutes to get ready so I had to go with wet hair that was caked with flour on the right side. Looked like I had dandruff, it was real pastey.
Another thing that happened this week, Jordy was in an earthquake. She woke up at 5:30 a.m. with her windows rattling and her dogs on her bed. She heard Crew crying and ran to him which was no small feat since stuff was flying off her dresser and I'm sure she felt like she was falling. She grabbed Crew and sat under the door frame with him looking at her like, what the heck is going on, if this is a ride Mom, I want off! She said it lasted about a minute and stuff was flying off her walls and shelves. Her computer desk moved about 3-4 feet. They were ok, but scared. John is still gone and she was alone so it was pretty scary. Then a little while later, Chili had their earthquake and it sent tsunami warnings out. We were a little worried, but she lives far enough to see the beach, but not be right there. She said the waves didn't even come over the sea wall. So....very eventful!
Almost out of time so more tomorrow in the saga.......
Thoughts for the day:
* When you wonder what the world is coming to, remember our grandparents wondered the same thing.
* If the year 2012 brings the end of the world, why worry so much? It's not like we can change it, we can only change ourselves to be ready for it. That means being ready to meet our Judgement. I for one am trying hard to do what's right so I won't be afraid to die. I will meet Jesus with my arms open.
* On a lighter note: Jesus wants me for a sunbeam! Sunbeam! Sunbeam!
Quote of the day:
* Don't worry about things you can't change, just focus on the ones you can!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Love and Hate
So it's been over a week since I have written in the 'Blog'. Jordy got upset so here we go. It's actually been a busy week. Last time I wrote about how my questions were answered and in the week since I have been trying to live with the decision and I must say that I am much happier now that I have a purpose! I have made an effort to really get behind the decision and it is working out great!
My mornings go something like this:
Get up at 4:15, not my favorite thing to do still
Get Tom off to work with his lunchbox in hand and a kiss out the door
Usually do my computer time until 6:00 which is facebook, hotmail, usually talking to Jordy
Colton is up at 6:00 and I get him off to school with a full belly and sometimes attitude!
7:30 is Jesus time! Scriptures, prayer, pondering
Anywhere from 8:30-9:00 is when I work out for about 45 min to an hour. I like to go to the gym, but I've been low on fuel and funds so I workout at home which in my opinion is much harder to make myself do.
Then I get ready for the day and clean and do what needs to be done by lunchtime so the afternoon is for me to do what I want. I bake, read, visit, what ever I want to do!
So I am much happier and I believe the family can see it.
Last week was Tom's birthday and Crystal and I made him a cake that looked like a farm. It turned out really cute and he loved it. We had lasagna, salad, bread, and cake and ice cream. We decorated the dining room with black streamers and blue balloons and had a nice time. We had soooooo much cake! I ended up giving so much of it away just so we didn't eat it all. I gave it to neighbors, Austin, in-laws.....whoever I could! I took Bruce Lewis some cake because it was he and Edie's Anniversary on Tom's birthday and I knew he could use some cheering up. She's been gone for a year now...doesn't seem like that long. Wednesday Crys and I helped Andrew and Kimberly take some stuff out of Vonzie's house. Those poor kids are so overwhelmed right now. And Dee Fricken Waldron.....what a jerk!!! Told the kids they had a week to get everything out so they could tear the house down. Von hasn't been gone but 3 weeks! Oh that person......he is going to hell in a handbasket!! So Saturday Tom, Crys, Colt and I went and helped them get the rest of the stuff out. I feel so bad for them cause they are still greiving and then have to put up with stupid, selfish people. I know Dee is a child of God too, but some kids are just naughty, you know?
I went grocery shopping on Saturday and Tom and I went to dinner and a movie, for $22 I might add. We are getting good at dating cheap! We went to Bajio and then went and saw The Wolfman. It was pretty good. Slow at times and kinda graphic too, but really not too bad. I like it the more I think about it. The good man and the evil beast. Probably give it 3.5 out of 5.
Found out yesterday that Noel is having 4 puppies and she could deliver any day. Summer (Crystal's dog) who we thought was also pregnant, is NOT and I am so glad. 4 puppies are enough to deal with. So I'm waiting for her to give birth and I'm pretty excited! Also yesterday I took my taxes to be done and realized that Dee Fricken Waldron didn't take any federal taxes out of my check, so I may end up paying again this year. Hopefully it won't be $3500 again!!! Then I went and re-newed my licence....refer back to an earlier blog......and oh yeah, forgot to say that Tom stayed home and we went and did our running together....I love when he stays home and we can do that. See just another reason I don't have a job, or go to school, couldn't do that!!!
So today, I'm going to meet Tom for Gym Time and then go where the day takes me. I already tore apart my stove trying to find what stinks, I'm sure it's a dead mouse and I was just a gagging!!! Stuffed Vicks up my nose just to try and find the stinking thing. Never did find it but I found lots of mouse poop (ooh gag) and I also found out that the wretched little creatures are eating my wires to my stove. AAAAHHHHH I hate freaking mice and I have had 4, count them,4 cats around here. Stupid waste of space felines!
So until next time......kill the mice, kill the cats, kill Dee, oh I mean 'Thou Shalt Not Kill'
Thoughts for the day:
* Why is the word abbreviated so long?
* Why is there mice? Why is there cats who don't eat mice? And am I the only one who's cat's don't?
* Why is it when you love someone so much, you want to just squeeze the crap out of them? Wouldn't that hurt them and make them stink?
Quote of the day:
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.
I think this applies not only to a lost love, but when your kids grow up and love someone else besides you. Even though I love John John to death!! In fact I would squeeze the crap out of him, but then there wouldn't be nothing left and he would stink !Ha Ha
My mornings go something like this:
Get up at 4:15, not my favorite thing to do still
Get Tom off to work with his lunchbox in hand and a kiss out the door
Usually do my computer time until 6:00 which is facebook, hotmail, usually talking to Jordy
Colton is up at 6:00 and I get him off to school with a full belly and sometimes attitude!
7:30 is Jesus time! Scriptures, prayer, pondering
Anywhere from 8:30-9:00 is when I work out for about 45 min to an hour. I like to go to the gym, but I've been low on fuel and funds so I workout at home which in my opinion is much harder to make myself do.
Then I get ready for the day and clean and do what needs to be done by lunchtime so the afternoon is for me to do what I want. I bake, read, visit, what ever I want to do!
So I am much happier and I believe the family can see it.
Last week was Tom's birthday and Crystal and I made him a cake that looked like a farm. It turned out really cute and he loved it. We had lasagna, salad, bread, and cake and ice cream. We decorated the dining room with black streamers and blue balloons and had a nice time. We had soooooo much cake! I ended up giving so much of it away just so we didn't eat it all. I gave it to neighbors, Austin, in-laws.....whoever I could! I took Bruce Lewis some cake because it was he and Edie's Anniversary on Tom's birthday and I knew he could use some cheering up. She's been gone for a year now...doesn't seem like that long. Wednesday Crys and I helped Andrew and Kimberly take some stuff out of Vonzie's house. Those poor kids are so overwhelmed right now. And Dee Fricken Waldron.....what a jerk!!! Told the kids they had a week to get everything out so they could tear the house down. Von hasn't been gone but 3 weeks! Oh that person......he is going to hell in a handbasket!! So Saturday Tom, Crys, Colt and I went and helped them get the rest of the stuff out. I feel so bad for them cause they are still greiving and then have to put up with stupid, selfish people. I know Dee is a child of God too, but some kids are just naughty, you know?
I went grocery shopping on Saturday and Tom and I went to dinner and a movie, for $22 I might add. We are getting good at dating cheap! We went to Bajio and then went and saw The Wolfman. It was pretty good. Slow at times and kinda graphic too, but really not too bad. I like it the more I think about it. The good man and the evil beast. Probably give it 3.5 out of 5.
Found out yesterday that Noel is having 4 puppies and she could deliver any day. Summer (Crystal's dog) who we thought was also pregnant, is NOT and I am so glad. 4 puppies are enough to deal with. So I'm waiting for her to give birth and I'm pretty excited! Also yesterday I took my taxes to be done and realized that Dee Fricken Waldron didn't take any federal taxes out of my check, so I may end up paying again this year. Hopefully it won't be $3500 again!!! Then I went and re-newed my licence....refer back to an earlier blog......and oh yeah, forgot to say that Tom stayed home and we went and did our running together....I love when he stays home and we can do that. See just another reason I don't have a job, or go to school, couldn't do that!!!
So today, I'm going to meet Tom for Gym Time and then go where the day takes me. I already tore apart my stove trying to find what stinks, I'm sure it's a dead mouse and I was just a gagging!!! Stuffed Vicks up my nose just to try and find the stinking thing. Never did find it but I found lots of mouse poop (ooh gag) and I also found out that the wretched little creatures are eating my wires to my stove. AAAAHHHHH I hate freaking mice and I have had 4, count them,4 cats around here. Stupid waste of space felines!
So until next time......kill the mice, kill the cats, kill Dee, oh I mean 'Thou Shalt Not Kill'
Thoughts for the day:
* Why is the word abbreviated so long?
* Why is there mice? Why is there cats who don't eat mice? And am I the only one who's cat's don't?
* Why is it when you love someone so much, you want to just squeeze the crap out of them? Wouldn't that hurt them and make them stink?
Quote of the day:
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.
I think this applies not only to a lost love, but when your kids grow up and love someone else besides you. Even though I love John John to death!! In fact I would squeeze the crap out of him, but then there wouldn't be nothing left and he would stink !Ha Ha
Monday, February 15, 2010
Questions...answered

* Let the man who has ears to hear, use them.
So I did let my ears hear what the Lord had to say to me. My questions that I have been asking and pondering about for weeks, have been answered. Saturday Tom finally said that he would use some of his retirement money for me to go to school. I felt guilty because he would do such a thing for me. But when he finally told me it was a gift from his heart then I accepted. So all day Saturday and Sunday morning I felt like that was my answer. Little did I know the Lord had yet to answer me.
I went to church like every Sunday and was sitting in class, we were learning about the role of Christ as our leader and Savior. I just love Jesus! Any way were learning about how the influence of Satan tries to take us away from the love of our Savior, the Savior is all about love, patience, family, and acceptance. The opposition wants the complete opposite. Duh! Then they opened up the class for comments or whatever. Some were giving stories and some were giving comments and talking about what their relationship with Jesus has given to them and how they feel about it. Well I sat there listening, because I don't really talk in church...wierd I know! But I figure I have alot to learn and being quiet and just listening is the best way. Now I don't know about you, but sometimes things people have to say just are nice stories, or don't really hit me. But other times I am like 'wow I think they are talking right to me!'. This was one of the comments: Lynette quoted Cathy Ure, whom I just adore so I listened....'It just breaks my heart so see mom's leaving their little ones with others to be raised around someone else's influence'.
Wow....it's just like when the Lord let us come here to be influenced by Satan. How hard it must be for Him to see it and know that we are not always going to do the right thing. Now I realize there are situations that a mother has to leave her children to go to work. I'm not a critic. But.....it hit me hard to realize that my kids do still need me. That was #1.
#2 came not too long after. One of Satans influences is to have the cost of living go up so the mother has to leave her children/family to make money. This is where the council of stay out of debt comes in to play. If we are smart with our money, and stay out of debt then the mother/wife can stay where she is needed. We may not have a nice bunch of toys in our yard or go on fancy vacations, but we are so close to being out of debt. In 1 more year, we will be debt free. So why should I go and leave my family to pursue something else? I am happy at home and know now this is where the Lord wants me to stay for now. I thought if something should happen to Tom, then I would then go to school and do what I need to do. Tom loves me at home and the kids love me at home and it's one of the things Jordy remembers the most.....coming home from school and having me here with a snack and a 'how was your day?'.
So today I made a list of things I love to do and I am making a plan. I will stay and do as the Lord asks and make my family top priority! Now that I know what I am suppose to do, I will do it to the best of my ability. I am going to exercise everyday like I use to, have my scripture time, keep my house in order and do something every day that I love to do (hobbies, visiting,volunteer).
I love it when the Lord answers me. I wasn't sure what to do and now.....as long as I got an answer, I don't care which one it is.
Friday, February 12, 2010
A state of confusion
To be or not to be? That is the never ending question in my head for the last year.
I must say that first I'm not complaining, just seriously confused. I have been a mom for almost 21 years and my whole life is my kids, but now they are growing up and some are gone and some are older, what do I do now? I know the girls still need me somewhat, Jordy maybe just to talk or ask questions but she has her own life going and she will always be part of mine. Crystal is almost 18 and going to move on with her life and even if she lives here, she doesn't need me like she use to. Colton is still the one who needs me the most, well I think so, not him. But even that is different than when they were all little.
I know I should be satisfied to be at home because there are so many women out there who don't get that opportunity, but I am just so restless. The things that use to make me content just don't anymore. You can only clean so much, go to the gym and visit and re-do this or that. I really want.....more? I know how that sounds, trust me, I know. I guess I just feel restless because this is a transition in my life....turning 40, having 2/3 of my kids grown and not knowing where or how to change. I have been a mom for so long, and I feel like I have been a good one. How do I do anything else, and do I really need to?
One part of me wants to stay home and be able to re-decorate my home....can still do it if I work/go to school, whatever. If I stay home then I pretty much have my day to do what ever I want to. I can go to the gym, visit my friends, volunteer, take off with Tom whenever I want to.
Another part would love to open up my own business. I know what I love to do and it would be nice to work doing something I love, but then I am married to it in the sense that I wouldn't be able to have freedom to do what ever comes along. But it would be satisifying in the sense that it is something I love and would be seeing people everyday and being able to serve them and make them happy.
The last part of the struggle is that I have been wanting to go to school for the last year or so. It seems like something is always coming up that makes it impossible at the time. I even took all my testing, aced it by the way, and registered and was 1 day away from going when Crystal needed me more. Since then, it seems like there is always something else. Money, the need to take care of someone else and their family, money, fear and did I mention money?
So here I am and all confused!!!! So I am going to pray for guidance and if anyone reads this, please pray for me also. I just don't want to make some huge mistake and be miserable.I know I need to do something because I am getting kind of depressed about it and being idle. Being idle is not what the Lord intends for us to do. Oh it is a sin and I try not to sin too much. So I will pray and maybe talk seriously about it with Tom because he knows I'm confused. I am just sort of wishy washy and never really finish alot of stuff I start.....so this is the time to do it!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why are we never content? Because the Lord wants us to keep learning.
* I'm not afraid of the dark, just afraid of what I can't see. What if something grabs me or is staring at me? AAAAAHHHHHH!
* If a bear chases me and my friend, I know who is going to get eaten. Yeah, I pretty much suck at running! So you better be my friend!
Quote of the day:
One who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; one who does not ask a question remains a fool forever.
I must say that first I'm not complaining, just seriously confused. I have been a mom for almost 21 years and my whole life is my kids, but now they are growing up and some are gone and some are older, what do I do now? I know the girls still need me somewhat, Jordy maybe just to talk or ask questions but she has her own life going and she will always be part of mine. Crystal is almost 18 and going to move on with her life and even if she lives here, she doesn't need me like she use to. Colton is still the one who needs me the most, well I think so, not him. But even that is different than when they were all little.
I know I should be satisfied to be at home because there are so many women out there who don't get that opportunity, but I am just so restless. The things that use to make me content just don't anymore. You can only clean so much, go to the gym and visit and re-do this or that. I really want.....more? I know how that sounds, trust me, I know. I guess I just feel restless because this is a transition in my life....turning 40, having 2/3 of my kids grown and not knowing where or how to change. I have been a mom for so long, and I feel like I have been a good one. How do I do anything else, and do I really need to?
One part of me wants to stay home and be able to re-decorate my home....can still do it if I work/go to school, whatever. If I stay home then I pretty much have my day to do what ever I want to. I can go to the gym, visit my friends, volunteer, take off with Tom whenever I want to.
Another part would love to open up my own business. I know what I love to do and it would be nice to work doing something I love, but then I am married to it in the sense that I wouldn't be able to have freedom to do what ever comes along. But it would be satisifying in the sense that it is something I love and would be seeing people everyday and being able to serve them and make them happy.
The last part of the struggle is that I have been wanting to go to school for the last year or so. It seems like something is always coming up that makes it impossible at the time. I even took all my testing, aced it by the way, and registered and was 1 day away from going when Crystal needed me more. Since then, it seems like there is always something else. Money, the need to take care of someone else and their family, money, fear and did I mention money?
So here I am and all confused!!!! So I am going to pray for guidance and if anyone reads this, please pray for me also. I just don't want to make some huge mistake and be miserable.I know I need to do something because I am getting kind of depressed about it and being idle. Being idle is not what the Lord intends for us to do. Oh it is a sin and I try not to sin too much. So I will pray and maybe talk seriously about it with Tom because he knows I'm confused. I am just sort of wishy washy and never really finish alot of stuff I start.....so this is the time to do it!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why are we never content? Because the Lord wants us to keep learning.
* I'm not afraid of the dark, just afraid of what I can't see. What if something grabs me or is staring at me? AAAAAHHHHHH!
* If a bear chases me and my friend, I know who is going to get eaten. Yeah, I pretty much suck at running! So you better be my friend!
Quote of the day:
One who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; one who does not ask a question remains a fool forever.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Oh how funny....
Today I want to talk about something funny and uplifting because I have been so.....not happy? Not the word I was looking for, but it will do.
What is funny? Well I almost think everything is funny! I have a way of looking at life with these funny goggles on and I can make almost anything funny. OK, so a train wreck isn't funny, but there are plenty of things that are.
You ever think about how funny you look when you are sick and throwing up in the toilet? Just think about it, you are sticking your face in something that people sit on with a bare butt! And I never notice how dirty it is until I have to stare at it for a while.
This one is a little off color but I can't resist......think of how funny a husband and wife look and act when they are having....relations. The noises alone are enough to make you crack up. I guess it's a good thing they are your spouse cause other wise it would be a little uncomfortable.
People laughing is another thing I find funny. We all have our own distinct laugh. When I laugh really hard I kind of do this thing.....my kids call it the old man laugh. I love laughing and when I really get going it is quite funny because I can't breath and I usually end up peeing my pants....or chair, or what ever I happen to be sitting on. A couple funny stories to go along with that:
* About 7 or 8 years ago me and my girls were staying up late playing Monopoly and it was really late and you know how you get when you are tired....well we do anyway. So we start doing stupid stuff and I can't stop laughing and I told the girls to stop cause I am going to pee my pants and of course they just keep me going to the point where I can't breath. So here I am not breathing and all of a sudden.....you guessed it, I peed my pants and I'm like ' I did it, I did it!' and it goes dribbling down the chair. So yeah needless to say my girls were just dying and we all were laughing harder.
* Just this last fall me and the family were playing another game....Last word, awesome game, it's a word game (obviously) and the word....vulva, yes a girl part, was misunderstood as Volvo and just the way it played out was so stinking funny that we all started laughing to the point of not breathing...and Sandy peeing her pants! Oh I need to start wearing Depends! So that isn't even the funniest part. I got up to go to the bathroom and there was like this little puddle on the chair which I was going to clean up when I got back from the bathroom...but Colton is such a dork. He comes over to the very chair I just got up from and puts his leg up and sticks his foot in the pee!~ Oh my gosh even now I am just laughing so hard thinking about it!
So see.....life is funny! I have been accused of being an insensitive person or a smart alec because I see humor in stuff that some people think shouldn't be funny. Now if someone is hurt or humiliated then it's not funny. But why not laugh at yourself and at life....it's not that serious and nobody gets out alive!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why do men think it's funny to fart and women think it's embarassing?
* Why do women get older and men just age gracefully?
* Why do women have such weak bladders?
* Why can't women pee standing up? I've never tried it, but it seems like it would be hard. Maybe I could win a peeing contest, I don't know!
Quote of the day:
Sure God created man before woman, but then again you always make a rough draft before creating the final masterpiece.”
What is funny? Well I almost think everything is funny! I have a way of looking at life with these funny goggles on and I can make almost anything funny. OK, so a train wreck isn't funny, but there are plenty of things that are.
You ever think about how funny you look when you are sick and throwing up in the toilet? Just think about it, you are sticking your face in something that people sit on with a bare butt! And I never notice how dirty it is until I have to stare at it for a while.
This one is a little off color but I can't resist......think of how funny a husband and wife look and act when they are having....relations. The noises alone are enough to make you crack up. I guess it's a good thing they are your spouse cause other wise it would be a little uncomfortable.
People laughing is another thing I find funny. We all have our own distinct laugh. When I laugh really hard I kind of do this thing.....my kids call it the old man laugh. I love laughing and when I really get going it is quite funny because I can't breath and I usually end up peeing my pants....or chair, or what ever I happen to be sitting on. A couple funny stories to go along with that:
* About 7 or 8 years ago me and my girls were staying up late playing Monopoly and it was really late and you know how you get when you are tired....well we do anyway. So we start doing stupid stuff and I can't stop laughing and I told the girls to stop cause I am going to pee my pants and of course they just keep me going to the point where I can't breath. So here I am not breathing and all of a sudden.....you guessed it, I peed my pants and I'm like ' I did it, I did it!' and it goes dribbling down the chair. So yeah needless to say my girls were just dying and we all were laughing harder.
* Just this last fall me and the family were playing another game....Last word, awesome game, it's a word game (obviously) and the word....vulva, yes a girl part, was misunderstood as Volvo and just the way it played out was so stinking funny that we all started laughing to the point of not breathing...and Sandy peeing her pants! Oh I need to start wearing Depends! So that isn't even the funniest part. I got up to go to the bathroom and there was like this little puddle on the chair which I was going to clean up when I got back from the bathroom...but Colton is such a dork. He comes over to the very chair I just got up from and puts his leg up and sticks his foot in the pee!~ Oh my gosh even now I am just laughing so hard thinking about it!
So see.....life is funny! I have been accused of being an insensitive person or a smart alec because I see humor in stuff that some people think shouldn't be funny. Now if someone is hurt or humiliated then it's not funny. But why not laugh at yourself and at life....it's not that serious and nobody gets out alive!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why do men think it's funny to fart and women think it's embarassing?
* Why do women get older and men just age gracefully?
* Why do women have such weak bladders?
* Why can't women pee standing up? I've never tried it, but it seems like it would be hard. Maybe I could win a peeing contest, I don't know!
Quote of the day:
Sure God created man before woman, but then again you always make a rough draft before creating the final masterpiece.”
Monday, February 8, 2010
So today has been wierd. I have had a blow, shock let's say to my extended family. I am not going into details, but it really is quite a surprise.
The thing I want to talk about is family loyalty. Now the people in my story have been very loved and I don't think that it should change. Just because people decide to not be together, that shouldn't mean we can't still love both of them. I am in my later (make it sound like I'm 80) years and I have gotten to know a thing or two about minding my own business and staying as neutral as possible when it comes to family issues. There is the one side of me that is furious, I won't lie about it. But the other part is telling me I don't know the story so I will just shut up and let the chips fall where they may.
Now some of the younger members of the family, who I love with all my heart, are really letting one of the people have it in a way that is almost......chicken shit? If they have something to say, then they should just say it and not where everyone can read or see it. It is hurtful and makes them look bad when I know they are very precious girls.
So here's the thing. How do I stay neutral and still stay loyal? Easy, just let them both know how much they mean to me and how much I love them. I wasn't there when they decided to get together and I shouldn't have to be there when they decide to not be together anymore.
So for all the hurt feeling, mean comments and ugliness there is, let's spread some love and understanding and remember we are family.
I truly do try to love everybody and even if you think I don't, well I really do.
Thoughts for the day:
* Why do we go to the cupboard or fridge 10 times thinking there will be something different than the last time we looked?
* Why is it when I push #1 for English I still can't understand the person on the other end?
Quote of the day:
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
The thing I want to talk about is family loyalty. Now the people in my story have been very loved and I don't think that it should change. Just because people decide to not be together, that shouldn't mean we can't still love both of them. I am in my later (make it sound like I'm 80) years and I have gotten to know a thing or two about minding my own business and staying as neutral as possible when it comes to family issues. There is the one side of me that is furious, I won't lie about it. But the other part is telling me I don't know the story so I will just shut up and let the chips fall where they may.
Now some of the younger members of the family, who I love with all my heart, are really letting one of the people have it in a way that is almost......chicken shit? If they have something to say, then they should just say it and not where everyone can read or see it. It is hurtful and makes them look bad when I know they are very precious girls.
So here's the thing. How do I stay neutral and still stay loyal? Easy, just let them both know how much they mean to me and how much I love them. I wasn't there when they decided to get together and I shouldn't have to be there when they decide to not be together anymore.
So for all the hurt feeling, mean comments and ugliness there is, let's spread some love and understanding and remember we are family.
I truly do try to love everybody and even if you think I don't, well I really do.
Thoughts for the day:
* Why do we go to the cupboard or fridge 10 times thinking there will be something different than the last time we looked?
* Why is it when I push #1 for English I still can't understand the person on the other end?
Quote of the day:
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Crew! My beloved grandson!

Okay so I have been doing this blog for about a month or so and I know there are some people who read it. Well that's very nice and I appreciate it!! But I just realized that for a whole month I haven't talked about one of my very favorite people in the whole world. Ready for a shocker? It's Crew!!! Oh yes my wonderful grandson!
Crew Mitchell Springer, born on December 7, 2007 in Okinawa, Japan. So that makes him just a little over 2 years old and the light of my life! He never bores me and never can do anything wrong. I get the blessings of being his Nana and I can't wait to see him and talk to him again even if I just talked to him the day before.
I get to see Crew and his mamma on Skype (best thing ever invented next to Pepsi) about 2 times a week and I talk to Jordy about 4 times a week. Now I can't forget his mom and dad, they are the reason for his being here. I love Jordy so much and she picked one heck of a husband in John. Very proud of him and his willingness to serve our country and Jordy is so great for supporting him, but everyone knows that Crew is my favorite right now. I know it sounds awful, but it doesn't mean I don't love my kids or Tom. It just means that Crew is my link with Heaven. He is the most darling, funny, sweet, stubborn, squeezable baby. And he is just the remedy for a bad day or rough week. He can make me smile and laugh and believe in goodness when I'm really wondering if there is any left in the world.
Being a grandma is the best gift God can give me. It means that I did a good job raising Jordan to be a good mom. It means that even during the worst teen-age moment I chose not to strangle my child. It means that because Jordy wants me to be a part of Crew's life, that she loves me and that means everything to me. I am so lucky to be the Nana of Crew and maybe his sibling(s) one day.
The only thing that will make it more complete is when I have a whole house full of grandchildren. Crystal and Colton will bless me with more I hope and then....wow will my life be joyous! Overflowing! Tom loves being a grandparent as much as I do. He loves that boy and spoils him like I've never seen anyone else be spoiled. Papa and Crew have an awesome relationship and I am so glad. I loved my grandpa so much and I know how important it is to have that in your life.
So here's to being a grandparent......the reward for not killing your children!
Thought for the day:
* A funny one by my friend Tracy: Why can't we park in the handicap space, but can use the handicap bathroom?
Quote for the day:
Becoming a grandmother is wonderful. One moment you're just a mother. The next you are all-wise and prehistoric.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Friends
I would like to talk about friends this morning. I have so many wonderful friends who have been there for the good times, the bad times and all the times in between. Friends are the glue that holds my life together! Friends don't have to be someone you see or talk to every day. They can be someone you meet only once, or see just once in a while or see once a day! They can be boys, girls, men, women, animals, and family.
I happen to have the best friend in the world....Tom. He is my very best friend, the one I can tell anything to and he will listen, give advice or just let me vent. He keeps my feet on the ground and keeps me humble. My girls are also my best friends. It is so nice to have daughters who can be my friends too. They are the ones I can be stupid with and just have random laughter and they know when I'm not having a good day. Jordy can call and tell if something is wrong right away. Crystal is my closest buddy right now because we are spending so much time together that we know each others thoughts. What ever will I do when she moves out? And you know, when they grow up, they are still your kids, but they are also your friends and it is so awesome!!! It is so great because when they know I'm having a hard time or bad day or I know they need to laugh, we don't get caught up in the emotional stuff, we just change the topic and start laughing about something we have done or something we remember and pretty soon the bad thing or bad day just disappears!
Colton is also my buddy, although he's not to the point the girls are yet. He is still young and going through the 'cool' stage of 6th grade. He is too cool for me right now and everything I do that we all think is funny, well he's just over there rolling his eyes.
My siblings are my friends and I have some pretty awesome cousins who are some of my best friends. We may not talk alot, but when we do it's great and I feel like we just picked up where we left off. No excuses for not talking all the time or calling or whatever, just friends who are related and love each other.
I have some great friends from my school days too. People who I see all the time (Deana Face), or once a year or sometimes longer, but they too don't feel the need to make excuses and neither do I for not getting together. We all have our lives to live and just because they aren't in it all the time doesn't mean they aren't part of it.
My visiting teacher is another treasured friend of mine. She is good to me and is my neighbor. She is good to my entire family and never judges anything. My sisters at church are very special to me also and we are really happy to see each other.
Noel is my little friend who is always glad to see me. She gives me kisses each time I get home, even if I've only gone over town for 15 minutes. She jumps on me and I have to pick her up. Noel is my cute little Shi Tzu dog. She is the one who comes to me and snuggles when I am crying or sick and never judges me when I get mad because she is under my feet. She is quick to forgive and always loves me! We could all take lessons in friendship from dogs.
I also am very lucky to have the Springers as my friends. They are Jordy's in-laws but we love them so much. Even my kids go see them by themselves or just call them up to say hi. They come to almost every function we have so I consider myself lucky to be friends with my daughter's other family. We also have some great friends in the StClairs. Big Mike and Switchblade Lucy and their son Austin are some of the funnest people to be around, they make me laugh!
So to all my friends, those who are my family, those who I see once a year or haven't even met yet, I am glad you are my friends because we can never have too many!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why is it so hard to make new friends? Because you are afraid they don't like you? How will they know if you don't get to know them?
* Someone can like me for who I am, if not they are missing out!
* What did we do before cell phones? Drive and listen to the radio, actually eat and talk to the person across the table from you, read a book on the bus or just visit with the person next to you?
Quote of the day:
There are no strangers, only friends you haven't met yet. :)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Anxiety.......gone!
Today is the first day in a couple of weeks that I woke up and didn't feel anxious. Don't really know why I felt that way, but I did and I hated it! I would wake up mad, nervous, heart beating fast and frustrated and I had no idea why!
I think that I was just stressed out at first because things were beyond my control and I didn't know how to go about fixing it. Through no fault of her own, a sweet family member was in limbo and I didn't know what to do.
Second, Von died and I didn't realize until Monday night that it really pissed me off. I guess I was too caught up in guilt to realize that it makes me mad that he left so soon and that our family didn't get to say good-bye. Monday was the straw.....people just literally pissed me off! After I talked to Tom (thank goodness I have my Woobie) he made me feel better. I went to the funeral Tuesday feeling somewhat better and when they said the family prayer before the funeral I had a sense of peace come over me. I knew it was ok and I shouldn't worry about it anymore. The stuff that I was so worried about, isn't really important to Vonzie anymore. So I should let it go. I wrote him the poem and put it in his casket with a pic of he and I and I told him how much I loved him and after that, I felt at peace. He knows I love him and he loves me and that is all that matters anymore. That's the only thing left after we pass through the veil, we take our love with us.
So another thing to happen is Shaley got her own place and I am happy for her......and us. It was getting so hard on all of us and she needed to move on with her life and not wait for anyone else to do it. She will be so much happier and she and I can be best buds again! She's only in Ogden, so it's not too far and I can go steal the kids when I want to. I am glad she spent some time with us, but the time has come and now we can all get on with it! I will misss that baby though, he loves his Nan!
Now the let-down of all the emotions starts.......so here's my headache! But that I can get through. Once again I can say with peace in my heart......I love my life!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why do people say that a paper cut is the worst? Wouldn't it be worse to cut your finger with butcher knife?
* Why does my daughter's name mean a very large penis? Ha...Jordan!!! urbandictionary.com
* Why do they cancel all the shows I love the most? Am I just a dork and like stupid shows?
* Why don't I write down all my thoughts so when I do my blog I'm not trying to think of something to say? :)
Quote of the day:
* Saying good-by is only painful if you never get to say hello again.
I think that I was just stressed out at first because things were beyond my control and I didn't know how to go about fixing it. Through no fault of her own, a sweet family member was in limbo and I didn't know what to do.
Second, Von died and I didn't realize until Monday night that it really pissed me off. I guess I was too caught up in guilt to realize that it makes me mad that he left so soon and that our family didn't get to say good-bye. Monday was the straw.....people just literally pissed me off! After I talked to Tom (thank goodness I have my Woobie) he made me feel better. I went to the funeral Tuesday feeling somewhat better and when they said the family prayer before the funeral I had a sense of peace come over me. I knew it was ok and I shouldn't worry about it anymore. The stuff that I was so worried about, isn't really important to Vonzie anymore. So I should let it go. I wrote him the poem and put it in his casket with a pic of he and I and I told him how much I loved him and after that, I felt at peace. He knows I love him and he loves me and that is all that matters anymore. That's the only thing left after we pass through the veil, we take our love with us.
So another thing to happen is Shaley got her own place and I am happy for her......and us. It was getting so hard on all of us and she needed to move on with her life and not wait for anyone else to do it. She will be so much happier and she and I can be best buds again! She's only in Ogden, so it's not too far and I can go steal the kids when I want to. I am glad she spent some time with us, but the time has come and now we can all get on with it! I will misss that baby though, he loves his Nan!
Now the let-down of all the emotions starts.......so here's my headache! But that I can get through. Once again I can say with peace in my heart......I love my life!
Thoughts for the day:
* Why do people say that a paper cut is the worst? Wouldn't it be worse to cut your finger with butcher knife?
* Why does my daughter's name mean a very large penis? Ha...Jordan!!! urbandictionary.com
* Why do they cancel all the shows I love the most? Am I just a dork and like stupid shows?
* Why don't I write down all my thoughts so when I do my blog I'm not trying to think of something to say? :)
Quote of the day:
* Saying good-by is only painful if you never get to say hello again.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
A POEM FOR VONZIE
A VERY FINE MAN THE LORD DID SEND,
CAUSE VONZIE YOU'RE OUR TREASURED FRIEND
YOU'RE THE MOST GIVING MAN WE EVER DID MEET,
BENEATH YOUR HARD HEAD, YOU'RE SO VERY SWEET
YOU TREATED THE KIDS LIKE THEY WERE YOUR OWN,
JUST ANOTHER GRANDPA, THAT'S HOW YOU WERE KNOWN
YOU WERE AT EACH BIRTHDAY, HOLIDAY AND SUCH,
WE LOVED HAVING YOU NEAR SO VERY MUCH!
A SATURDAY BREAKFAST WAS ALWAYS A JOY,
YOU GOT SO EXCITED, LIKE A KID WITH A TOY!
YOU'LL BE MISSED EACH MORNING AT COFFEE WITH THE GUYS,
THEY'LL MISS YOUR OPINIONS, NOW THERE'S A SURPRISE!
WE'LL KEEP WAITING FOR YOU TO CALL OR DRIVE BY,
THEN WITH A TEAR IN OUR EYE, WE'LL REMEMBER WHY.
WE'LL MISS YOU DEAR FRIEND, AND ALL THAT YOU DO
BUT PLEASE JUST REMEMBER HOW MUCH WE LOVE YOU!
Thoughts for the day:

* Why does it matter if the groundhog see's his shadow? There is another 6 weeks till spring anyway.
* How does a cloud hold all that water when it's just vapor?
* Why do siblings beat the crap out of each other, but when someone else wants to do it, then they are all up in their face?
* Why does sour cream have an expiration date? Isn't it already sour?
Quote for the day:
* When you're at the end of your rope, tie a knot and swing!
Friday, January 29, 2010
Fun sized and feeling like a jerk

I honestly have no idea what to write about today. It has just been a wierd day. Didn't get much sleep, think I went to bed around 2 and tossed and turned and finally woke up around 7. Feeling very sad and....I'm gonna say feeling like an A-hole. I know I did alot for Von and I also know he was a big part of my life but I honestly was such a jerk to him at times.
He just was lonesome, I get that now. I have done alot for him over the years, like clean his house, grocery shopped, drove him to the doctor, took him to get stuff for his house and taken him dinner. I also had him over for birthdays, Thanksgiving and Christmas. But I really would get annoyed with him at times and now I am kicking myself for it.
The things he did that just drove me crazy were like calling 6 times a day or pulling in my driveway and honking so I would come out and talk to him. Ahhh...he would even come up to Dee's when I worked there and wait for me outside to talk to me. When he needed something he would make it sound like he needed it now or he would die(no disrespect). It's like he didn't understand that we had so much going on, with getting up at 4 a.m. and doing all the things you do for a family, work, farm and then wanting to go to bed by 9.
So now I know I sound like a snotty, selfish A-hole. It took Tom finally making me realize, that's just how Von was. Tom knew him for almost 30 years and understood him more than me. He told me about 3 months ago that Von just really gets lonely and we were pretty much his family besides his son and daughter-in-law. He didn't have anyone else. So after that I was more patient and wasn't such a brat.
But still I can't forget how I was so impatient with him and it really bothers me to the point that I am having trouble sleeping. I guess I learned a lesson, never be a jerk to anyone who needs your help, which pretty much means everyone. There are people everyday that I know who need my help. I just get so bugged sometimes because it seems like when you try to help people and try to carry them, they pick up their feet and let you do all the work. Right now I'm not talking about Von. He always was so grateful and wanted to do something for us in return so I wonder why I was such a jerk? But some people......man you do all you can to help them, guide them and give them your all and they just take advantage of it. Picking up their feet and letting you carry them. My theory has always been that people are good until they prove otherwise and I've gotten messed over quite a bit. My friend Sue Anne has a different theory......everyone's an asshole until they prove otherwise. Maybe that's the smarter approach? Probably not cause then I would be unhappy and bitter. Not that she is, just not my style. And she is the sweetest lady I know and I just love her dearly and she makes me laugh!!!
Thoughts for the day:
*When something is so far away we say "clear to Timbuktu" ,so do you think the people in Timbuktu say "clear to North America"?
*Did you know that the 'blackbox' on an airplane isn't even black? It's red or orange! So why is it called the 'blackbox'?
*Why is the grass greener on the other side?
* I'm not short, I'm fun-sized for your convenience!
* Boys have a penis and girls have a 'China'. It's a Houston thing. :)
Quote for the day:
It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Vonzie
So today is a sad day for many of us. Today someone we love and was such a big part of our lives, died. Vonzie will be missed.
Honestly, at times he was annoying and overcritical and always wanted things done his way, right now! There wasn't a topic discussed that he didn't have an opinion on. He was right, always, weather he was or not.
Now Von was Tom's football coach when he was in little league and then he ended up marrying Tom's sister in 1984. He was always around the farm helping and doing what he was asked. He always helped with milking, harvesting and minking. He was the one who took our wedding pictures when Tom and I got married. (not good ones, but did it for free and very nice of him). That's how Von was, doing everything for everyone, all the time.
Von was not one to make people upset, he would let people walk on him at times. That's how he got screwed over in his divorce to the point where he lived like a pauper for many years. But finally the last few years he was able to live to the fullest. He was able to buy his first brand new car ever, outright, no loan. He was able to buy new carpet, a new bed, new recliner.....tons of infomercial crap, and anything his heart desired. His son asked him one time why he bought so much stuff and Von just said, "cause I can".
Von was an important person not just in our lives, but in the commmunity. Everyone pretty much knew who he was. The guys at Larry's will surely miss him for morning coffee. The waitress' will miss him in the afternoon and evening sitting at the bar telling them how to do their job. He drove around Morgan every day, several times a day and knew all the scuttle and gossip. If we wanted to know anything going on, we just had to ask him. He was also a member of the Jeep Patrol/Search and Rescue. Now we all know that he couldn't do much, but he would drive around with the emblem on his door and drive in the parade, or help block off a road and always go to the meetings.
His health of course was not good at all. He started out with 'Mortensen's Disease' which is a disorder of the nerves and equalibrium, and had it for years. He had congestive heart failure and diabeties.
He was quite a guy. Funny, know-it-all, giving, annoying,selfless and the best of us all. He will be so missed and will give us good memories for the rest of our lives.
Thoughts of the day:
* When you're retired, it means you quit working, so what do you call it when you had a job? Tired?
* Why do we cry when people die? We should be happy for them because they are done and moved on to a wonderful place.
* Ever notice how when people do die, all the memories come rushing back like a flood?
Quote for the day:
It's not the living or dying that is hard, it's the transition.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
DMV and Deana Face
Ok today what will I talk about? So on my birthday in December my drivers license expired and I was suppose to get it renewed and never did. Here it is almost 2 months later and I finally decide to get it done. But that is another story for later....
Today I went to the gym and worked out for an hour, I am actually in my 4th week of going 4-5 days a week. Pretty good for me! I decided it's the only way I'm ever going to get the weight off. I have tried almost every diet out there and they just don't work, obviously! So I went there and then I met one of my besties for a drink at Barnes & Noble. It is becoming our place and we don't do much but have a drink and talk, talk, talk about everything!
Deana Face is my oldest (not in years, but the longest) friend I have had, besides Tom. She and I have been friends since 8th grade. When she first came I was suppose to hate her cause everyone said that she would give my other friend 'competition'. But it didn't last long and she has been my sweet, bestie ever since. We both had 2 girls and were married at young ages. She is so like me it's almost scary. There is a very noticable difference though.....she is tall and thin and I am short and...uhm not thin? Ha! We have both lived in Morgan our whole adult lives and she lives about 2 miles away from me and we hardly ever saw each other. How sad is that?! She is now a grandma too and has a similar situation with the whole live in thing. She and I go have drinks and vent! Too funny.
So after Barnes & Noble (B&N) I went to go get my license renewed. I had a few extra minutes and thought I better get it done before I get pulled over. I have only been pulled over 2 times in my life. Once when I was 21 ( wow another lifetime ago) because I was speeding. The second time was on my 32nd birthday. My car tags were expired. Seems to be a problem with me getting things renewed on time! But just because I have an expired license I will get pulled over and then I'll be in trouble!! But I ramble on........I went to the DMV and there is 10,000 people there, you know. And I fill out the paper, wait in line, try to understand what the people in front of and behind me are saying.....Spanish! Anywho, get up to the cute little man, cute cause he is like John's age and he tells me I need my birth certificate, social security card, blah blah blah and I'm like "I just need to renew it cause I forgot to in December" He says " Yes but starting the 1st of January we changed the policy, you need to have it for a renewal too" I must have a funny, panicked look on my face and he said "just come back tomorrow and don't get pulled over" Well thanks guy who I thought was so cute! I'm wondering why I need to verify all of this yet AGAIN, but all I need to do is look around at all the 'legal immigrants' to understand. Ha Ha Ha! No Speaka da enlis!
Thoughts for today:
* Why do all the boys want to look like girls, and the girls look like guys?
* What color does a Smurf turn when you choke him?
* If a tree falls in the woods and no one is around to hear it, does it still make noise?
* If God created man, then who created God?
* What was the guy thinking who first ate an egg? I think I'll eat this thing that came out of that chickens butt!
* Since there were dinosaurs on the Earth once, do you think God just wanted to play around first?
Quote of the day: Find something good in everyone, cause you never know, it could be Jesus!
Today I went to the gym and worked out for an hour, I am actually in my 4th week of going 4-5 days a week. Pretty good for me! I decided it's the only way I'm ever going to get the weight off. I have tried almost every diet out there and they just don't work, obviously! So I went there and then I met one of my besties for a drink at Barnes & Noble. It is becoming our place and we don't do much but have a drink and talk, talk, talk about everything!
Deana Face is my oldest (not in years, but the longest) friend I have had, besides Tom. She and I have been friends since 8th grade. When she first came I was suppose to hate her cause everyone said that she would give my other friend 'competition'. But it didn't last long and she has been my sweet, bestie ever since. We both had 2 girls and were married at young ages. She is so like me it's almost scary. There is a very noticable difference though.....she is tall and thin and I am short and...uhm not thin? Ha! We have both lived in Morgan our whole adult lives and she lives about 2 miles away from me and we hardly ever saw each other. How sad is that?! She is now a grandma too and has a similar situation with the whole live in thing. She and I go have drinks and vent! Too funny.
So after Barnes & Noble (B&N) I went to go get my license renewed. I had a few extra minutes and thought I better get it done before I get pulled over. I have only been pulled over 2 times in my life. Once when I was 21 ( wow another lifetime ago) because I was speeding. The second time was on my 32nd birthday. My car tags were expired. Seems to be a problem with me getting things renewed on time! But just because I have an expired license I will get pulled over and then I'll be in trouble!! But I ramble on........I went to the DMV and there is 10,000 people there, you know. And I fill out the paper, wait in line, try to understand what the people in front of and behind me are saying.....Spanish! Anywho, get up to the cute little man, cute cause he is like John's age and he tells me I need my birth certificate, social security card, blah blah blah and I'm like "I just need to renew it cause I forgot to in December" He says " Yes but starting the 1st of January we changed the policy, you need to have it for a renewal too" I must have a funny, panicked look on my face and he said "just come back tomorrow and don't get pulled over" Well thanks guy who I thought was so cute! I'm wondering why I need to verify all of this yet AGAIN, but all I need to do is look around at all the 'legal immigrants' to understand. Ha Ha Ha! No Speaka da enlis!
Thoughts for today:
* Why do all the boys want to look like girls, and the girls look like guys?
* What color does a Smurf turn when you choke him?
* If a tree falls in the woods and no one is around to hear it, does it still make noise?
* If God created man, then who created God?
* What was the guy thinking who first ate an egg? I think I'll eat this thing that came out of that chickens butt!
* Since there were dinosaurs on the Earth once, do you think God just wanted to play around first?
Quote of the day: Find something good in everyone, cause you never know, it could be Jesus!
Monday, January 25, 2010
God's a wonderful artist!

Today is Monday, not only any other Monday, but the one after an awesome weekend away with my Woobie! Woobie is Tom in case no one knows, cause he is my comfort, my safety and I can't sleep without him. (you know, like a kid with their blankie, or woobie as some kids call it)
We went to Zion National Park this weekend and went hiking. It was so nice there, I fogot how beautiful it is and how much I love it! If no one has ever been there, then make the trip because it is worth it. I have been there about 6 times since I was a little girl and it amazes me more everytime I go. It is so majestic, and beautiful and......just breathtaking to see how nature and God put things together. What an artist God is!
It was colder there than I thought it would be. I haven't ever been there in January, but it's pretty cold. There was quite a bit of snow and the temps got chilly as soon as the sun went down. We hiked up to Emrald Pools which is so beautiful anyway, but it is such a different sight in the winter. I took my camera, but it died of course, but I did get some pics. It is pretty steep climbing and I wasn't really prepared for the snow so it was slick at times and all I could think of was falling down the cliff and dying! I'm just kidding, I never even thought about how we could plummet to our deaths until we got back down. I was too busy trying not to fall on my butt! It was pretty slick.
There is a tunnel on the upper side that is a mile long ,right along the side of a mountain (cliff) They made it in the 1930's and it is really something. You don't realize you are right along the cliff and it must go up alot in elevation,duh we only went up like a million miles to get to the tunnel, because you come out the other side and it's just like a winter wonder land! So much snow! Beautiful and serene and just plain lovely!
Springdale is the little tourist town that you stay in, and it is such a quaint place. Typical tourist town with all the gift shops, seasonal resturants, tourist prices on everything! We went to a 3D movie of the ocean in the local theater, wow, let me just say that I came away feeling used. That is all I will say about that. The town has alot of things to do, shopping, eating, movies, photo galaries, museums and they even have brewing and candy making places! There are so many places to stay, lodges, campgrounds, B&B's. We stayed at the Cliffrose Lodge just outside the park. Not real spendy and nice too.
The park itself is so beautiful that it takes your breath away. Literally when I was hiking uphill forever I couldn't breath! Ha! But seriously, it is breathtaking. The huge canyon walls make you feel so small and the majesty of the place.....oh just wonderful!
We wanted to go through Kolob Canyon as well, but when we came through on Friday we found out the road was closed. You can start at Kolob and end up at Zion. There is also Bryce Canyon that is just as beautiful.
So the weekend was great, time alone with my wonderful husband and being part of Gods majestic art canvas, having peace and quiet and re-charging for another week. Wonder if I can go back every weekend?
Thoughts for the day:
*Do you realize how much we could get done in a day if we didn't have to sleep?
* On the same note, imagine how much money we could save if we didn't have to eat?
* Why is it that you don't have to use the bathroom when you pass a rest area, but about 10 miles down the road you realize there isn't another stop for 100 miles! Squeeze it in, squeeze it in!
* Why is it that you miss your kids way more than they miss you? Really, they could care less, we ruin their fun by coming home too soon!
Quote for the day:
I can't miss you until you go away!
So go away already!
We went to Zion National Park this weekend and went hiking. It was so nice there, I fogot how beautiful it is and how much I love it! If no one has ever been there, then make the trip because it is worth it. I have been there about 6 times since I was a little girl and it amazes me more everytime I go. It is so majestic, and beautiful and......just breathtaking to see how nature and God put things together. What an artist God is!
It was colder there than I thought it would be. I haven't ever been there in January, but it's pretty cold. There was quite a bit of snow and the temps got chilly as soon as the sun went down. We hiked up to Emrald Pools which is so beautiful anyway, but it is such a different sight in the winter. I took my camera, but it died of course, but I did get some pics. It is pretty steep climbing and I wasn't really prepared for the snow so it was slick at times and all I could think of was falling down the cliff and dying! I'm just kidding, I never even thought about how we could plummet to our deaths until we got back down. I was too busy trying not to fall on my butt! It was pretty slick.
There is a tunnel on the upper side that is a mile long ,right along the side of a mountain (cliff) They made it in the 1930's and it is really something. You don't realize you are right along the cliff and it must go up alot in elevation,duh we only went up like a million miles to get to the tunnel, because you come out the other side and it's just like a winter wonder land! So much snow! Beautiful and serene and just plain lovely!
Springdale is the little tourist town that you stay in, and it is such a quaint place. Typical tourist town with all the gift shops, seasonal resturants, tourist prices on everything! We went to a 3D movie of the ocean in the local theater, wow, let me just say that I came away feeling used. That is all I will say about that. The town has alot of things to do, shopping, eating, movies, photo galaries, museums and they even have brewing and candy making places! There are so many places to stay, lodges, campgrounds, B&B's. We stayed at the Cliffrose Lodge just outside the park. Not real spendy and nice too.
The park itself is so beautiful that it takes your breath away. Literally when I was hiking uphill forever I couldn't breath! Ha! But seriously, it is breathtaking. The huge canyon walls make you feel so small and the majesty of the place.....oh just wonderful!
We wanted to go through Kolob Canyon as well, but when we came through on Friday we found out the road was closed. You can start at Kolob and end up at Zion. There is also Bryce Canyon that is just as beautiful.
So the weekend was great, time alone with my wonderful husband and being part of Gods majestic art canvas, having peace and quiet and re-charging for another week. Wonder if I can go back every weekend?
Thoughts for the day:
*Do you realize how much we could get done in a day if we didn't have to sleep?
* On the same note, imagine how much money we could save if we didn't have to eat?
* Why is it that you don't have to use the bathroom when you pass a rest area, but about 10 miles down the road you realize there isn't another stop for 100 miles! Squeeze it in, squeeze it in!
* Why is it that you miss your kids way more than they miss you? Really, they could care less, we ruin their fun by coming home too soon!
Quote for the day:
I can't miss you until you go away!
So go away already!
Friday, January 22, 2010
Comedy is .....funny!

Ha ha.....I had to enlarge the font because I couldn't see it when I would post it. I really need to get some glasses!!
Today I will talk about comedy. The best thing about comedy is it makes you laugh (yeah,that's my attempt at funny). Comedy is the best medicine out there. I actually have heard stories about people with cancer and they watched like funny movies all day and it helped with their recovery. I personally love to laugh, as if people didn't know.
Comedy to me isn't crude, nasty or at someone else's expense. It is honest to goodness funny stuff. I love the little things that like Disney puts in their cartoons, some of the stuff they say is just for grown ups because there is no way a kid gets it. Now I'm not a prude either, but some stuff is just funny. Not about nasty stuff, but like....some potty humor is funny if done in a non-vulgur way. Some comedians think they need to be loud and swear and just be crude. Not funny to me.
Some of my favorite thingsto watch are America's Funniest Home Videos, just watching people do stupid stuff that honestly we all do at one time or another.....so funny, babies and animals are the funniest!
Most Disney movies are so funny too, the older ones are pretty funny and just so wholesome! The Apple Dumpling Gang and Hot Lead and Cold Feet are awesome! I think one of the funniest is Cars with Mator, he is soooo funny!
One of the funniest movies I have seen is Private Eyes with Don Knotts and Tim Conway. Very funny movie and family entertainment. Most kid movies are great too, like The Sandlot, Angels in the Outfield,Little Rascalls and Dennis the Mennis with Walter Matheau.
Good comedians are Jeff Foxworthy, Bill Engval and Larry the Cable Guy. Now sometimes they can be a little off color and I wouldn't want my 11 year old to watch them, but all in all good laughs! But by far the best comedian in my opinion is Jeff Dunham and his puppets!!! I would like to thanks my son-in-law John for turning me on to this funny, funny guy! This guy is just so dang funny and you forget that he is the one talking for his puppets, you really think he is having a conversation with another living thing. He has Walter, the grumpy old guy, Sweet Daddy D, the pimp-like agent guy, Achmed the Dead Terrorist, who is just sooooo funny! And he has Jos`e Jalapeno on a Stick who is my second favorite, but by far my very favorite in the whole world is Peanut! I kid you not he is so funny and I laugh so hard no matter how many times I watch him. You have got to check him out!! Now some of the stuff is, not crude, but just a smidge off color, but still ok to let my 11 year old watch. Some stuff is just insinuated and younger people won't get it. You can go to youtube and type in Jeff Dunham and Peanut or go to JeffDunham.com. You will seriously laugh your head off! If you don't take my advice and watch him, you are missing out!
Thoughts for today:
*When you over draft your account at the bank, since there isn't any money, why do they charge you more? Hello, if there isn't money in the first place why would you think there would be more? It's like trying to get blood from a stone! I know you shouldn't overdraft because it is just so 'bad' but sometimes it just happens, to me anyway!!
*Why is it so important what religion you are? As long as you are a good person, believe in something more that keeps you humble, and love each other, why does it matter if you are Catholic, Buddist, Baptist or LDS? Come on we are all human just trying to get by and live happy lives!
* If Fuzzy Wuzzy was a bear, and Fuzzy Wuzzy had no hair then Fuzzy Wuzzy wasn't very fuzzy, was he?
* Why is there an un-needed 'f' in Jeff? (only those who watch Peanut will know what I mean)
* Why didn't God give us Grandchildren first? I know the answer is obvious, but I enjoy my grandson so much and everything he does is so cute! I think it's cause I don't have to be the 'heavy'. He can just do what he wants and I will just send him back to him mommy!
Quote for the day:
Grandchildren are parents reward for not killing their children!
Thanks for reading and I am headed out for a weekend of hiking in Zion with my honey!
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