Better than nothing...

So today I feel much better than I did yesterday. Don't know if it's because I stayed off the caffeine or had some time alone or because I decided to change my attitude. Either way, I'm better than I was. Heck I even mowed my lawn tonight, but didn't get the dishes loaded after dinner, but that's better than nothing!

I talked to Jordy and Crew last night and I realized that I just miss those guys so dang much and I'm being shafted on the Nana stuff! But I have Skype and that's better than nothing!

We went and helped Crystal pick up a waterbed because she wants to move downstairs and make herself some private space...her bed wouldn't fit so she went another way. She wants to make the basement like her apartment and if that keeps her from moving out, well that's better than nothing!

Tomorrow is my last day of school for the week and so hopefully I can get something done around the house. My cupboards and closets need cleaning and my yard needs some major attention! My lawnmower wheel is falling off and I hope it makes it through the next few weeks because I am not buying another one this year. It's old and works my guts out, but....it's better than nothing!

So I will be done for now because I need to go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be another good day....but if it's not at least I'm alive and my family is healthy and that's better than nothing!





Thought for the day:
I think it should be a best friends job to immediatly clear your computer history when you die ;D

Time Flies!

Wow does time fly! I just realized that I haven't blogged for almost 6 months! What is wrong with me? So much has happened since the end of March. Oh let's see, how to get caught up...nope...too much so I will just start now...

Today is one of those days where you just feel frustrated with the world. I'm usually not a negative person and I see the glass half full and humor fixes anything, but...today I feel frustrated with school, housework, bills and myself. School is stagnant right now because I'm trying to get Med. Term done and I'm starting on Psychology and I keep hearing it pretty much sucks. I've done really well in Med. Term so I don't think I need to take the final but then when I'm done with that I have to take Law and Ethics and I'm not really excited cause it just seems so boring. Yes I am whining...is there a fine for that? Should be right? My house is just falling to pieces and the bills (mostly doctor) just keep coming. And myself...well I feel good inside, it's the outside that really, really gets me down. I know what I need to do, when I do it, then it works and I feel good, but I am lazy. No getting around it. I'm not usually lazy, I am pretty active and all but by the time I get home from school, make dinner, study, clean some of the house, spend time with Tom and the kids I am so pooped that I just want to go to bed and not exercise. I eat good though so that's something. Yes I am still whining....another $5 in the jar please..

So anyway, does anybody else ever feel this way? Please don't let me be the only one. Okay, enough whining...mostly cause I don't have any more money to put in the jar...dang! There it is again...$5 please.

My family is healthy, I have a roof over my head and my husband and kids love me. Oh and I have the best, cutest, sweetest, overall wonderful grandson. So life is good.... stay tuned!

Thought for the day:

He who laughs last, probably didn't get it.

Thinking Spring and thinking too much

I'm sitting here watching it snow and wishing it wouldn't. My request for today is that the snow goes away until November 30th. Thank you. I put the flowers cause I want Spring to come!!!

So my mom is coming today to visit for a week. This time she is staying with Sheri. I haven't seen her for a year and I think I have talked to her 3 times since then? Actually it's alot for us. She really doesn't call me, and that's fine cause I don't make much of an effort either. Our relationship, at best, is......wierd. There is no other word for it. It's hard to see how she lives and I want to do something about it, but when I try she refuses and I can't really help her from another state. We even offered to turn our garage into a mother-in-law apartment for her and she said no. I get frustrated I guess.

So she is coming to visit from Colorado and Sheri is getting her teeth taken care of because they are in such bad shape. They have all broken off ( the 17 that are left) and they are infected and causing her pain and she can't really eat anything. So the theory is, pull out the teeth for now because it has got to be better than what she has, and then try to get her some false teeth later.

I don't know why, but ever since I found out she is coming, I have really been melancholy. I don't mean to be, I mean she's my mom. I have forgiven her for the past and I realize she really is quite messed up and the people who put her there in the first place will have judgement brought down and it will not be pretty. But I guess the reason I feel the way I do is because I am sorry for her and when I try to help her, it just reminds me of how my childhood was. Now I don't feel sorry for myself, but I feel bad for the situation and how it ended. Thank Heavenly Father for helping me and being my protector. He helped me through some tough times as a child and I didn't even know about him! He kept me and my sister safe from many an evil thing and then He gave us a way out. I will forever be grateful to my dad for taking me out of that life. Even though at the time, I was very upset to be taken from my mom, because I didn't know better. So anyway......too much serious talk. Let's get on to the fun stuff!

Thoughts for the day:

*What hair color do they put on the drivers licence of bald men?

*As income tax time approaches, did you ever notice: When you put the two words 'The' and 'IRS' together, it spells 'THEIRS'?

*Never kick a cow chip on a hot day.

* My mom got me a toilet brush for Christmas, it's not working out so well, I'm thinking of going back to paper

Quote of the day:

Being young is beautiful, but being old is comfortable

I'm starting to feel more comfortable every year! Yay me!

Puppies, movies and John John

So I really don't have much to say, but thought I better update a little. My puppies are growing and growing fast! They will be 3 weeks old tomorrow and they are so cute! Noel has been a great mom and I can't wait to see them running outside when it's warmer.

I have seen a few movies in the last few weeks. And only 1 was family worthy. The first one we watched was on me and Tom's date night, Cop Out....not a good show and very vulgur, offensive and one I would have watched when I was 16. Then we watched a movie on PPV...Zombieland. Ok, I know it's a horror movie and I don't usually watch them, but this one struck me as decent.It was so graphic and lots of bad language, but not too bad. I was laughing and it had a way of touching my funny bone. The next one was a dvd...Law Abiding Citizen....very, very graphic. The only reason I watched it was because Gerard Butler was in it...he is quite handsome! The story line was good enough but the violent scenes were enough to keep me up that night. The 3rd movie was AVATAR and we took the kids to see it. It was really quite good. I love sci-fi stuff anyway and it was well done. No nasty scenes, no graphic violence and no outright bad language. I guess I'm getting to be a prude in my older years, but there really isn't any reason for the bad language in movies. I mean some of them don't bother me, but some really really do! The other one was Wolfman. Not a bad show only so bloody and graphic. The story line was great and had that classic horror picture feel to it. The story of good vs. evil was so prominant and it was well done with good special effects. I was scared of the wolfman...trust me!

Another thing that happend this week that was so great was John got home from the desert. That makes everyone happy! He got home safe to his family and now they can spend some time together and we don't have to worry about him or Jordy and Crew. (well not so much anyway)

Thoughts for the day:

* If you go to the clothes store to buy camoflage pants, do you have trouble seeing any? (uncle Howie, cracks me up)

* Should we let a helping heart turn us bitter? We do and we do for people and sometimes we get bit in the butt!

* A blonde walks into a bar and says ouch

Quote of the day:

Believe only half of what you hear, some of what you see and everything you feel!

Freedom of Religion

Wow I have been thinking about religion a lot lately. I have been trying to be the best person I can be and choosing to follow the teachings of my church to the fullest is really making me a lot happier! I have made a habit of scripture study and prayer and following the promptings of my Father in Heaven. I am trying to live by the Word of Wisdom which is a guide for my temporal body and really trying to look at the world in a whole new light.
I love being able to talk about how I feel with my family. I love having conversations with Tom because he is so knowledgeable and full of faith. He had us start paying tithing again because it is something we feel is important. Everything we have is by the grace of the Lord and all he wants is for us to show our gratitude and faith by giving him 10%. All I have to do is walk into a church building and feel the warm air in the winter, the cool air in the summer and see all the beautiful accessories and know that our 10% is going to some good. Not to mention all the people it helps. The Church is one of the first ones to respond in a crisis. Haiti, Chili, Katrina....they are there to provide supplies and help.
And the Temples.....wow what a place of beauty and peace! Now I will be the first to tell you that I don't know everything there is to know about our religion, but what I do know, I know is right and true. I love the Temple, there is literally no place on Earth that has that peace and feeling of.....aahhh, it's just an experience one must have on their own to understand.
It is my hope that all my children will choose to enter the House of the Lord someday. I hope if it is what they want that they choose to do it on their own, and not because someone else says they should. I also hope that if Crystal isn't married when she is 21 that she will go on a mission and Colton will choose to go when he is 19. Tom and I are planning on doing a couples mission when he retires one day.
Now I am one of the Lords naughty children. If you would have told me 20 years ago that I would feel this way about any religion I would have told you to get the heck out of my face...only I would have said worse than heck. It's amazing how life is. I truly, truly, truly love my Savior and I know that He knows who I am and knows my struggles and joys. He is my friend, my brother and my life, I am so grateful for His sacrifice and his willingness to save a 'soul so rebellious as mine'.
I know Jordy is wanting to go to the Temple some day and I am so proud of her. She has some obstacles, but they too will work themselves out. She has a wonderful, loving husband and I am confident saying he will take her there some day with their children and what a wonderful day that will be! I will be right there beside my baby girl and be swelling with love that can't be measured. And they are re-modeling the Ogden Temple so maybe she can go to that one when it's done. I am so excited to see how it turns out!!! Going to be absolutly beautiful!!!!
So if anyone ever wants to ask me questions about my beliefs, or has something they want to discuss, I will be most willing to answer them. I will always tell the truth even if it's the hard thing to do. I am confident that people will listen to my story and know how the Lord can change your life for the better. It has made me look at my fellow man and helped me realize we are all children of a loving and graceful Father in Heaven and he loves EVERYONE! Yes it's hard to think of Him loving the 'bad' people, but even when we have bad children, don't we still love them, just don't love their actions or choices? So when I go somewhere and I feel frustrated with people, I tell myself that God loves them too and I look for something positive in them. Do they have a beautiful smile? Are they loving to their children? Do they have a nice laugh? Anything that helps me see them in a different light, the way the Lord wants me to see them. Pretty soon, you start to really like everybody. It's a nice feeling.


Thoughts for the day:

* We are all flawed in some significant way

* Why are there so many different religions?

* Why do we wish for summer only to wish for fall?

* What is the point of a mosquito? I mean really, they are useless! Gonna have to take that one up with the big guy some day.


Quote of the day:

Of course we're Christian. The very name of the church declares that. The more people see us and come to know us, the more I believe they will come to realize that we are trying to exemplify in our lives and in our living the great ideals which (Jesus Christ) taught.
Gordon B. Hinckley

Kids and quakes!

Okay, I have like 30 minutes before Colton gets up and I have to start my day for real. So I have a lot to say and not alot of time to say it! Speaking of Colton.....he is really getting an attitude! Oh he is going through puberty or something! Wow!!! My girls got real whiney and cried over everything, Colton gets mouthy and mad. He has such a bad attitude at times I can understand why some animals eat their young.

A few things he has done:

Called me a theif because I tried to give him a check for his allowance and the amount wasn't what he thought I should give him. So I told him he could take it or leave it so he said that made me a theif. So I tore up the check! Then when he was sent to his room for being naughty, he called me a cheap old woman! Kind of funny right? Then a couple of weeks ago he missed the bus so I told him to just ride the elementry bus with Jayk, he FREAKED!! He said 'no, it's embarassing!'. Huh? He rides it every Wednesday for late start? So he ran to his room and locked the door, with a padlock! Oh if I could have broke the door down....he's lucky! So he stayed in there all day and refused to go to school!!! AAAHHHHH I told him he better stay there all day cause the minute he came out I would smack him in the face. Around 1:00, and when I calmed down enough not to strangle him, I went and told him to come and eat and then I was putting him to work. He said ' no cause you'll smack me'. I started laughing! What could I do? So he came out and ate and went to the bathroom, he really, really had to pee. Then I made him clean the yard up, feed ALL the animals and read and do homework. You know, it's a good thing I'm older and easier going. In my younger days, I would have found a way to break down the door and smack the crap out of the kid.

Another thing that happened this week was my darling Crystal played a joke on me. A funny one, but very mean. Tuesday I was going to meet Tom for gym time and I thought 'I'll just hurry and bath, do my hair and make-up and then I won't have to do it later'. So all was going just fine until it was time to dry my hair.......turned on the hair dryer and.....poof! A big ol' cloud of white stuff comes out and blows all over my hair, my face, my vanity! I'm like 'what the heck' then I realized what was going on. Crystal put flour in my hairdryer! I screamed and ran upstairs and yanked the covers off of her and started smacking the crap out of her!(ha ha,maybe she needs a padlock) Not mean, mind you, just to get my point across. She started laughing when she realized why I was mad and then I started laughing too. It was a good joke, just timed wrong. I had about 15 minutes to get ready so I had to go with wet hair that was caked with flour on the right side. Looked like I had dandruff, it was real pastey.

Another thing that happened this week, Jordy was in an earthquake. She woke up at 5:30 a.m. with her windows rattling and her dogs on her bed. She heard Crew crying and ran to him which was no small feat since stuff was flying off her dresser and I'm sure she felt like she was falling. She grabbed Crew and sat under the door frame with him looking at her like, what the heck is going on, if this is a ride Mom, I want off! She said it lasted about a minute and stuff was flying off her walls and shelves. Her computer desk moved about 3-4 feet. They were ok, but scared. John is still gone and she was alone so it was pretty scary. Then a little while later, Chili had their earthquake and it sent tsunami warnings out. We were a little worried, but she lives far enough to see the beach, but not be right there. She said the waves didn't even come over the sea wall. So....very eventful!

Almost out of time so more tomorrow in the saga.......

Thoughts for the day:

* When you wonder what the world is coming to, remember our grandparents wondered the same thing.

* If the year 2012 brings the end of the world, why worry so much? It's not like we can change it, we can only change ourselves to be ready for it. That means being ready to meet our Judgement. I for one am trying hard to do what's right so I won't be afraid to die. I will meet Jesus with my arms open.

* On a lighter note: Jesus wants me for a sunbeam! Sunbeam! Sunbeam!

Quote of the day:

* Don't worry about things you can't change, just focus on the ones you can!

Love and Hate

So it's been over a week since I have written in the 'Blog'. Jordy got upset so here we go. It's actually been a busy week. Last time I wrote about how my questions were answered and in the week since I have been trying to live with the decision and I must say that I am much happier now that I have a purpose! I have made an effort to really get behind the decision and it is working out great!
My mornings go something like this:
Get up at 4:15, not my favorite thing to do still
Get Tom off to work with his lunchbox in hand and a kiss out the door
Usually do my computer time until 6:00 which is facebook, hotmail, usually talking to Jordy
Colton is up at 6:00 and I get him off to school with a full belly and sometimes attitude!
7:30 is Jesus time! Scriptures, prayer, pondering
Anywhere from 8:30-9:00 is when I work out for about 45 min to an hour. I like to go to the gym, but I've been low on fuel and funds so I workout at home which in my opinion is much harder to make myself do.
Then I get ready for the day and clean and do what needs to be done by lunchtime so the afternoon is for me to do what I want. I bake, read, visit, what ever I want to do!
So I am much happier and I believe the family can see it.
Last week was Tom's birthday and Crystal and I made him a cake that looked like a farm. It turned out really cute and he loved it. We had lasagna, salad, bread, and cake and ice cream. We decorated the dining room with black streamers and blue balloons and had a nice time. We had soooooo much cake! I ended up giving so much of it away just so we didn't eat it all. I gave it to neighbors, Austin, in-laws.....whoever I could! I took Bruce Lewis some cake because it was he and Edie's Anniversary on Tom's birthday and I knew he could use some cheering up. She's been gone for a year now...doesn't seem like that long. Wednesday Crys and I helped Andrew and Kimberly take some stuff out of Vonzie's house. Those poor kids are so overwhelmed right now. And Dee Fricken Waldron.....what a jerk!!! Told the kids they had a week to get everything out so they could tear the house down. Von hasn't been gone but 3 weeks! Oh that person......he is going to hell in a handbasket!! So Saturday Tom, Crys, Colt and I went and helped them get the rest of the stuff out. I feel so bad for them cause they are still greiving and then have to put up with stupid, selfish people. I know Dee is a child of God too, but some kids are just naughty, you know?
I went grocery shopping on Saturday and Tom and I went to dinner and a movie, for $22 I might add. We are getting good at dating cheap! We went to Bajio and then went and saw The Wolfman. It was pretty good. Slow at times and kinda graphic too, but really not too bad. I like it the more I think about it. The good man and the evil beast. Probably give it 3.5 out of 5.
Found out yesterday that Noel is having 4 puppies and she could deliver any day. Summer (Crystal's dog) who we thought was also pregnant, is NOT and I am so glad. 4 puppies are enough to deal with. So I'm waiting for her to give birth and I'm pretty excited! Also yesterday I took my taxes to be done and realized that Dee Fricken Waldron didn't take any federal taxes out of my check, so I may end up paying again this year. Hopefully it won't be $3500 again!!! Then I went and re-newed my licence....refer back to an earlier blog......and oh yeah, forgot to say that Tom stayed home and we went and did our running together....I love when he stays home and we can do that. See just another reason I don't have a job, or go to school, couldn't do that!!!
So today, I'm going to meet Tom for Gym Time and then go where the day takes me. I already tore apart my stove trying to find what stinks, I'm sure it's a dead mouse and I was just a gagging!!! Stuffed Vicks up my nose just to try and find the stinking thing. Never did find it but I found lots of mouse poop (ooh gag) and I also found out that the wretched little creatures are eating my wires to my stove. AAAAHHHHH I hate freaking mice and I have had 4, count them,4 cats around here. Stupid waste of space felines!
So until next time......kill the mice, kill the cats, kill Dee, oh I mean 'Thou Shalt Not Kill'


Thoughts for the day:
* Why is the word abbreviated so long?

* Why is there mice? Why is there cats who don't eat mice? And am I the only one who's cat's don't?

* Why is it when you love someone so much, you want to just squeeze the crap out of them? Wouldn't that hurt them and make them stink?



Quote of the day:
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

I think this applies not only to a lost love, but when your kids grow up and love someone else besides you. Even though I love John John to death!! In fact I would squeeze the crap out of him, but then there wouldn't be nothing left and he would stink !Ha Ha