Questions...answered

* Let the man who has ears to hear, use them.

So I did let my ears hear what the Lord had to say to me. My questions that I have been asking and pondering about for weeks, have been answered. Saturday Tom finally said that he would use some of his retirement money for me to go to school. I felt guilty because he would do such a thing for me. But when he finally told me it was a gift from his heart then I accepted. So all day Saturday and Sunday morning I felt like that was my answer. Little did I know the Lord had yet to answer me.

I went to church like every Sunday and was sitting in class, we were learning about the role of Christ as our leader and Savior. I just love Jesus! Any way were learning about how the influence of Satan tries to take us away from the love of our Savior, the Savior is all about love, patience, family, and acceptance. The opposition wants the complete opposite. Duh! Then they opened up the class for comments or whatever. Some were giving stories and some were giving comments and talking about what their relationship with Jesus has given to them and how they feel about it. Well I sat there listening, because I don't really talk in church...wierd I know! But I figure I have alot to learn and being quiet and just listening is the best way. Now I don't know about you, but sometimes things people have to say just are nice stories, or don't really hit me. But other times I am like 'wow I think they are talking right to me!'. This was one of the comments: Lynette quoted Cathy Ure, whom I just adore so I listened....'It just breaks my heart so see mom's leaving their little ones with others to be raised around someone else's influence'.

Wow....it's just like when the Lord let us come here to be influenced by Satan. How hard it must be for Him to see it and know that we are not always going to do the right thing. Now I realize there are situations that a mother has to leave her children to go to work. I'm not a critic. But.....it hit me hard to realize that my kids do still need me. That was #1.

#2 came not too long after. One of Satans influences is to have the cost of living go up so the mother has to leave her children/family to make money. This is where the council of stay out of debt comes in to play. If we are smart with our money, and stay out of debt then the mother/wife can stay where she is needed. We may not have a nice bunch of toys in our yard or go on fancy vacations, but we are so close to being out of debt. In 1 more year, we will be debt free. So why should I go and leave my family to pursue something else? I am happy at home and know now this is where the Lord wants me to stay for now. I thought if something should happen to Tom, then I would then go to school and do what I need to do. Tom loves me at home and the kids love me at home and it's one of the things Jordy remembers the most.....coming home from school and having me here with a snack and a 'how was your day?'.

So today I made a list of things I love to do and I am making a plan. I will stay and do as the Lord asks and make my family top priority! Now that I know what I am suppose to do, I will do it to the best of my ability. I am going to exercise everyday like I use to, have my scripture time, keep my house in order and do something every day that I love to do (hobbies, visiting,volunteer).

I love it when the Lord answers me. I wasn't sure what to do and now.....as long as I got an answer, I don't care which one it is.